Saturday, 6 February 2016 at 17:22 with ≡
Well well, already a month into 2016 and I still haven't got my shit together yet. Hahaha. What a joke right. Hmmm, I guess in 2016, I wish I will be able to pen my thoughts down more in this little space of mine. It kinda helps with my comprehension and like talking skills too. Since I always talk to people without a beginning or ending which is bad, cause most of the time, they have no idea what in the world I am talking about.
So. 2016.
January's been a month full of thoughts. Lots of thinking. Pondering. Wondering. Figuring out what I want to do with my life. I wished I figured out my life as fast as my friends did. Or at least they had a path planned for them. Some were smart, they got scholarships, got to study overseas, or at a local uni, doing... studying. Yeah, those working, seemed to have their lives together. Work-life balance, aye. I really didn't know what I want to do. Or more like I didn't know where to start. Or how to start. What if I started and I disliked what I embarked on? I couldn't just quit in a snap. I wasn't all that confident of my portfolio for me to send it for applications to unis. Even, let's just say, even...if I got an interview for it, would I even be happy since I wasn't even satisfied with my portfolio haha.
YEAH. So these are just a fraction of what goes through my mind every single day. I can't help but be in envy of my friends who got their shit together, having the time of their lives. But yeah, gotta start somewhere. So where did I eventually decided to begin with? An internship. Again. HAHAHAHA.
Yes, I know, I should have gotten a full time job yadayada. But I already said I aint confident of what I've got, why not start small and just grow slowly later, I got a lifetime ahead of me to learn and still keep having a go at it! Plus I really think that this time, I got to give it my all. No more lazy-pazy me, no more excuses, no more this or that, I got to work for what I want. Success don't come that easily. If it was that easy, it ain't gonna be worth it. LOL, just trying to psycho myself of the shit I'm going to go through for the next few months. But we will all see how it goes right?
So, like I said, January has been a month of thoughts. Friends, family, finance, relationship-wise, I guess I kinda got a grip of myself on my life now.
Full steam ahead, February!
So. 2016.
January's been a month full of thoughts. Lots of thinking. Pondering. Wondering. Figuring out what I want to do with my life. I wished I figured out my life as fast as my friends did. Or at least they had a path planned for them. Some were smart, they got scholarships, got to study overseas, or at a local uni, doing... studying. Yeah, those working, seemed to have their lives together. Work-life balance, aye. I really didn't know what I want to do. Or more like I didn't know where to start. Or how to start. What if I started and I disliked what I embarked on? I couldn't just quit in a snap. I wasn't all that confident of my portfolio for me to send it for applications to unis. Even, let's just say, even...if I got an interview for it, would I even be happy since I wasn't even satisfied with my portfolio haha.
YEAH. So these are just a fraction of what goes through my mind every single day. I can't help but be in envy of my friends who got their shit together, having the time of their lives. But yeah, gotta start somewhere. So where did I eventually decided to begin with? An internship. Again. HAHAHAHA.
Yes, I know, I should have gotten a full time job yadayada. But I already said I aint confident of what I've got, why not start small and just grow slowly later, I got a lifetime ahead of me to learn and still keep having a go at it! Plus I really think that this time, I got to give it my all. No more lazy-pazy me, no more excuses, no more this or that, I got to work for what I want. Success don't come that easily. If it was that easy, it ain't gonna be worth it. LOL, just trying to psycho myself of the shit I'm going to go through for the next few months. But we will all see how it goes right?
So, like I said, January has been a month of thoughts. Friends, family, finance, relationship-wise, I guess I kinda got a grip of myself on my life now.
Full steam ahead, February!
